Tuesday, November 26, 2013

11.26.13: Favorites


Your favorite color is blue.
Your favorite food is chicken
Your favorite number is five.
Your favorite holiday is Christmas.
Your favorite hockey team is The Islanders.
Your favorite baseball is The Mets.
Your favorite football team is The Giants.
and we all have our favorites,
but my favorite thing
is you. 

Saturday, November 23, 2013

11.23.13: Mind Reader

So, I've had a non-stop headache for like weeks now...I've been getting really bad ones lately so I was in my creative writing class and thought, hmmm, I wonder if my headaches mean that I'll be able to read people's minds (doubt it but it might make a good story). So here's my first attempt at writing about super powers:


My head pounds. It’s been going on like this for days now. It hurts so much that my vision goes blurry. I’m losing focus. My balance is failing. Silence. Black.
            My eyes flutter open. What happened? My headache is still here. Why won’t it go away?
            “But Ashley told Jake…” I whip around. I didn’t know other people were here. Why didn’t they wake me up?
            “Hello? Is anyone there?” No one answers me. I’m alone.
            “But if the biological makeup of bitumen…” I thought I was alone.
            “Who’s there,” I repeat. I still receive no answer. What the hell is bitumen? I try to call out for who-ever again. “Who’s Ashley? Who’s Jake? What’s bitumen? Hello?” Silence. Great. I’ve lost my mind. Literally. Still silence. Where are these voices coming from? I press my fingers to my temple and rub in slow, deliberate circles. That doesn’t help. I pinch together the skin between my eyebrows and my nose and I feel the pulsing go through my hand. Pulse, pulse, pulse, beat, beat, beat like my heart.
            My head feels like someone is crushing it between his or her hands. I try to focus on my breathing: in and out, in and out. My focus is beginning to fade; my vision blurs. Silence. Black.
            What’s happening? My eyes begin to focus again. Still alone…or at least I think I am. I need to get out of here. Let me go home. I push myself off of the library couch and grab my backpack. Too much studying…it’s finals week…that’s what’s wrong with me.
            I fling the doors out and walk into the brisk morning. I must’ve spent the night at the library without even realizing it. I keep my eyes concentrated on the sidewalk as people pass me by. They’re all trying to talk to me. I didn’t realize that I knew so many people on campus. But I don’t care what they have to say. And then I realized that they’re all talking to me.
            But I don’t know them. I don’t know him or her or them. Why are they talking to me? Why won’t they stop? Stop talking to me. Please, please stop. I was about to turn to the girl next to me to tell her to shut up when I realized that her lips weren’t moving.
            I couldn’t tell anyone to shut up because no one was actually talking to me. 

Friday, November 22, 2013

11.22.13: Writing, burdens, and focus

I just want to write because its something that I'm good at. I write better than I speak. The Words come easier, but if I make a mistake, all I have to do is erase it. When my pen glides across the page, I feel at peace. It's the only thing in the world that ends up mattering. It's liberating. I'm free. The burdens fall off of my shoulders...
You break my focus. You always break my focus. You're the only one who can break my focus. You should take pride in that.
I catch your eye, but quickly look away, blushing and hiding my eyes back into my notebook. Back to work; back to writing. I have to get the burden's off my chest. Don't break my focus. You're my burden.

I'd like to dedicate this blog post to netflix for always giving me anything to watch.

11.22.13: Shock Value

So, while I was in class the other day, we were doing a poetry workshop. This one girl decided to share a poem that had a word that is considered vulgar in the English language. And even though its spoken in everyday life and somewhat tolerated, to see the word written was a little more than shocking. It sort of disturbed me. So this is my reaction to it...I know it doesn't make a ton of sense but that's kind of the point and in an odd way, I feel like it works here? I'm not sure but I thought I'd share it.

Vulgarity and obscenity in the spoken word
Vs.
Vulgarity and obscenity in the written word.
We may speak but once we see,
we react.
Used to always emphasize our point,
But more so on the page.
The pen is mightier than the sword.
Swing.
Fuck.
Didn’t expect that, did you?
We treat the written word with the respect
we think it deserves.
Or to get our point across.
Whichever comes first.
Whichever is more effective.
Need vulgarity?
Add.
Need obscenity.
Add.
Ass.
Shock Value.
Boom.
Now they’re just random words…
But what if they actually made sense?

Sunday, November 10, 2013

11.10.13: Comfort above all else


Okay, so does anyone remember my “train talks” post about Belinda? And her bad shoes? Well, I’ve had a realization today: I am Belinda. As I was standing in line at Starbucks waiting for my medium hot white chocolate mocha, in my black dress with my makeup done, I was Belinda.
On my feet were none other than my brown Uggs. And you might be questioning, why were my Uggs, which didn’t match my outfit at all, on my feet?
Because I had to drive and I hate heels. Comfort always comes first. I’m assuming, for Belinda, it was some sort of the same thing. And just like Belinda, I got the same weird looks that I gave her.
So, Belinda, I’m sorry that I didn’t realize your value for comfort earlier and I salute you. 

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

11.6.13: Peacemaker

Okay, So I want to take a minute to explain this poem a little bit. The main theme is peace...and maybe you guys can't tell, but I'm hoping that my overall tone comes across as acceptance. I wrote this poem to accept the fact that my grandfather is no longer with us...Although it still sucks, I think that I'm finally accepting it.
It's called peacemaker because I'm making peace with myself that this is what happened but also, as I reflect on my grandfather's life, I realized that he was always the one who kept the peace.
So, this one's for you, big guy. I love you and miss you everyday.

You were our peacemaker.
You held us together.
You stopped the fights.
And although it's taken me seven months to see...
our peacemaker is what you'll always be.